Got acall yesterday drom the Dr. that my TSH level was 4.07, so a decrease in my MMI to 5 mg. Sleep was good last night...though, still feeling tired and extremely depressed today. Had to delete all my postings from my fb wall so it didn't "bother" anyone...that based on a message from my so loving sis, who said it was depressing. She has no clue! Besides the fact I have no real close friends, makes all this really suck! Oh, I am sure, if it came down to it, ther are people who say they care...but it's no different than any other day, when no one calls to see how you are feeling, or if there is anything they could do for ya...Not even my hubby...who really doesn't give two shits about anyone but himself anyway...Yup! they all would say i'm wrong, but I know I'm right... Not that I really want people doting over me, but no one ever calls me to come and visit, no one calls me to go out, no one calls me to go shopping or to garage sales, no one calls me to just talk...
You think I would be used to it by now...been this way since after high school...guess that is what happens when you move around so much...everytime you get a good friend, you up and move and don't stay in touch...whatever...
So this is the painful reality, is that I walk this life alone...always wishing I had another kind of life, nothing ever changes for long...
What a pathetic life I live! And the sad reality is no one really gives a damn....
My name is Lauri Ann (Walker) Mosall. On June 11, 2010 - I was officially diagnosed with an uncurable, chronic, auto-immune disease of hyperthyroidism, called Graves' Disease. I have created this blog, in the hope to help myself and maybe others cope with this very frustrating and complicated disease. To contact me on a personal level, please send an email to lmosall@yahoo.com. Be patient, it may take me some time to answer or even read it if I don't feel well.
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