Thyroid issues seem to be going well...had at least 3 really good days. I called the DR fo rmy repeat blood tests to se if the levels have changed since the decrease in the MMI.
until last night! but it wasn't thyroid related, it was family related, and has caused me severe distress and stress related symptoms. I am nausea, and diahrea so bad...i have no energy...my sstomch is in so much pain. my pills did not get dissolved into my system.
Well more later...gotta go
My name is Lauri Ann (Walker) Mosall. On June 11, 2010 - I was officially diagnosed with an uncurable, chronic, auto-immune disease of hyperthyroidism, called Graves' Disease. I have created this blog, in the hope to help myself and maybe others cope with this very frustrating and complicated disease. To contact me on a personal level, please send an email to lmosall@yahoo.com. Be patient, it may take me some time to answer or even read it if I don't feel well.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
7/26/2010
3pm...well one good day one bad day...Saturday was great...felt great, had energy, despite having lil man I really enjoyed my day. Sunday was well, a little of both...was tired. baby lil man woke at 5:30 and did not want to go back to sleep. i took a nap in the afternoon with him, but it was more like a rest period. did not sleep really well, and woke with dreams giving a bit of anxiety. the evening was pretty yucky. I started getting anxious and fidgety...wanted to bring lil man home early, just started feeling uncomfortable with myself. had missed lunch, and wanted desperately to go get something to eat. daughter screwed up my plans, she had to go shopping, so by the time she got home and I got lil man back at the apt it was after 9pm! was very agitated, and feeling irritable as hell...went to bed at 10:30 and woke up at 7:30 this morning. i rmember waking up in dreams...i remember the first one i was screaming, you know dreaming that you were screaming...and nothing comes out, then as you gradually wake up, you hear yourself?
this morning i feel okay...still feel some light pressure behind my eyes and an oh so slight vagueness of a headache. the day has been fairly quiet, except for the usual husband stupid shit...which i probably should just start another blog for...but i am so sick of his forgetfulness it isn't funny...i can't stand it when your asked to call someone and you have NO information and he does not put any notes on the event, and then oh guess what? I AM the one who blows it, because HE has to change shit, like I can just mysteriously know all this shit...stress you say? I am SICK of stress!!! and being his personal #@%@# notepad~! Why does it that HIS irresponsibility makes me look like the ass and not him?
this morning i feel okay...still feel some light pressure behind my eyes and an oh so slight vagueness of a headache. the day has been fairly quiet, except for the usual husband stupid shit...which i probably should just start another blog for...but i am so sick of his forgetfulness it isn't funny...i can't stand it when your asked to call someone and you have NO information and he does not put any notes on the event, and then oh guess what? I AM the one who blows it, because HE has to change shit, like I can just mysteriously know all this shit...stress you say? I am SICK of stress!!! and being his personal #@%@# notepad~! Why does it that HIS irresponsibility makes me look like the ass and not him?
Friday, July 23, 2010
7/23/10
Woke up witha headache again this morning.
felt pretty blah for the most part, but still can't shake this irritable feeeling, and just don't want to be bothered, but still wish I had someone who truly cared for me and showed it. i know hubby hates me, and I am getting where I can't stand his forgetfulness, slobbliness, and total lack of respect for himself and others.
Maybe I just am supposed to be alone my the rest of my life. why can't anyone find joy anymore...so tired, so tired of feeling sick...so tired of feeling miserable. Widh i could just go home and be pampered for a while...
yeah...selfish, i know, just syaing that is how i'm feeling.
felt pretty blah for the most part, but still can't shake this irritable feeeling, and just don't want to be bothered, but still wish I had someone who truly cared for me and showed it. i know hubby hates me, and I am getting where I can't stand his forgetfulness, slobbliness, and total lack of respect for himself and others.
Maybe I just am supposed to be alone my the rest of my life. why can't anyone find joy anymore...so tired, so tired of feeling sick...so tired of feeling miserable. Widh i could just go home and be pampered for a while...
yeah...selfish, i know, just syaing that is how i'm feeling.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
7/22/2010
1:30pm - feeling quite shitty again today...really depressed, didn't sleep much at all last night...feel like my eyes are going to pop out of my head...and still have the lingering headache. maybe more tomorrow.........
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
July 21, 2010
Got acall yesterday drom the Dr. that my TSH level was 4.07, so a decrease in my MMI to 5 mg. Sleep was good last night...though, still feeling tired and extremely depressed today. Had to delete all my postings from my fb wall so it didn't "bother" anyone...that based on a message from my so loving sis, who said it was depressing. She has no clue! Besides the fact I have no real close friends, makes all this really suck! Oh, I am sure, if it came down to it, ther are people who say they care...but it's no different than any other day, when no one calls to see how you are feeling, or if there is anything they could do for ya...Not even my hubby...who really doesn't give two shits about anyone but himself anyway...Yup! they all would say i'm wrong, but I know I'm right... Not that I really want people doting over me, but no one ever calls me to come and visit, no one calls me to go out, no one calls me to go shopping or to garage sales, no one calls me to just talk...
You think I would be used to it by now...been this way since after high school...guess that is what happens when you move around so much...everytime you get a good friend, you up and move and don't stay in touch...whatever...
So this is the painful reality, is that I walk this life alone...always wishing I had another kind of life, nothing ever changes for long...
What a pathetic life I live! And the sad reality is no one really gives a damn....
You think I would be used to it by now...been this way since after high school...guess that is what happens when you move around so much...everytime you get a good friend, you up and move and don't stay in touch...whatever...
So this is the painful reality, is that I walk this life alone...always wishing I had another kind of life, nothing ever changes for long...
What a pathetic life I live! And the sad reality is no one really gives a damn....
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
July 16, 2010
- 2:30 pm - went for blood work; wait for phone call.... :/
- 10:30am - The symptoms have returned...2 nights of sweats...irritable...raging...no sleeping again, waking up with anxiety (even on the atenolol), my face feels like someone poured a gallon of grease over my head, and I looked at my fingernails-looks as if all I bit off yesterday has grown back overnight!
Called the Endo yesterday, and the PA's assistant called this morning to have me come in for blood work.
Though, I have already cut several 10mg pills in half last night and took 15mg before bed, instead of 10mg. I know it takes several days, and up to a week before the effects will be in me, so I feel pretty safe.
So now I am having concerns about, what if the levels aren't going backwards? What could be going on? The MA said he also wanted a CBC, because of having the cold, but the last time I felt really shitty, I called and had the CBC and the results were normal...so? I guess we wait and see....
- 10:30am - The symptoms have returned...2 nights of sweats...irritable...raging...no sleeping again, waking up with anxiety (even on the atenolol), my face feels like someone poured a gallon of grease over my head, and I looked at my fingernails-looks as if all I bit off yesterday has grown back overnight!
Called the Endo yesterday, and the PA's assistant called this morning to have me come in for blood work.
Though, I have already cut several 10mg pills in half last night and took 15mg before bed, instead of 10mg. I know it takes several days, and up to a week before the effects will be in me, so I feel pretty safe.
So now I am having concerns about, what if the levels aren't going backwards? What could be going on? The MA said he also wanted a CBC, because of having the cold, but the last time I felt really shitty, I called and had the CBC and the results were normal...so? I guess we wait and see....
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
My story...
2 yrs ago (2008), I was found, just by chance, to have nodules on my thyroid with a MRI of my cervical spine.
I have been monitored starting every 6 months with an US and blood work, then to every year. My Last visit was in December 2009, and the Dr. said everything was fine, they did not do any blood work.
My erratic list of symptoms:
Peri-menopause started about 4 yrs ago and the ob/gyn told me it was normal and everyone has to go through it. Menses had always been extremely heavy and painful with large clots. On occasion even had two ovarian cysts burst.
Joint pain...started so many years ago I can't remember how long...first saw the rheumatologist sometime 2004ish. Pain would get so bad 1200 mg Advil wouldn't help...so stiff after sitting for period of time, I couldn't straighten up at first. Muscle cramps or what would feel like the onset of a muscle cramp but would just ache.
Have IBS, so bought of constipation and diarrhea are normal...loose stools every day are not normal. This started in early to late April. In addition, would be intermittent, not all the time. Contributed it to the Kiefer I was buying to regulate myself and was actually pleased because I wasn't being constipated.
Felt agitated and irritable, and then the sleeplessness started. I would be exhausted and finally fall asleep only to wake up about 90 minutes later. I would then doze off and on all night long, more off than on.
I would lay awake at night and it would feel like my heart would pound out of my body. I would wake up in an anxiety attack, and I was dreaming...worrying. Then my thoughts would race and it would get more anxiety and I couldn't sleep.
I was getting more and more tired and irritable...I started noticing I was real edgy at work, I felt like I was ADD...I'd start something and forget what I was doing...or couldn't concentrate on what I was doing. Something that should or would only take a couple hours was taking me all day...if I as interrupted, I would either forget completely what it was I was doing, or not remember where I left off. I was forgetting things...things I normally wouldn't...I started to feel not quite right.
The sweats started, not just at night, but also now during the day. I would get soaked, couldn't stand the heat, and I rarely had this problem...it was the cold I couldn't tolerate.
Then the anger would set in...An argument turned into a rage session I would throw things, get completely out of control. My thoughts were completely irrational, but at the time were very rational to me. I could only see my thoughts; usually I could put me on both sides of a discussion. I felt out of control...my chest would get heavy and I couldn't breathe. I broke an end table by "just setting the phone down".
May 2010 - I started seeing the psychologist because I was feeling depressed...I wanted to run away, hide, leave, make it all and everyone go away, it would all get better. The first time I talked with her she thought for sure I was into a full-blown major depressive episode, and told me to get on anti-depressants immediately.
Therefore, I schedule an appt with my GP to get a script...who did not write one for the medication she suggested. Ultimately, he did not write one at all...this was karma. However, he did do the blood work for thyroid, although it took him over 10 days to call me and tell me I needed to see the endo immediately. They faxed me the results, which I scanned and sent via email to the endo.
May 28, 2010 - I had an appt to see the PA he works with and started me immediately on the beta blocker atenolol, with an appt for an uptake and scan a week later (June 4), and follow-up later with the PA (June 11), who then started me on methimazole. The PA said labs proved to be Graves' although the uptake and scan did not. The conclusion, I was in the early stages and not very often do they catch one that early. The uptake and scan also concluded my body does not store as much iodine as others, and therefore I use it rapidly. I have always had a fast metabolism rate.
June 4, 2010 - 25 mg atenolol is prescribed once a day, but can be up to twice if needed. I take one immediately, and within hours I feel relaxed...I took another before bed, and slept that night. Took another in the morning, and continued this for a couple days.
June 11, 2010 - 20 mg methimazole is prescribed once a day, I take it. The next day I take it in the morning...I feel tired, for the next few days I feel good one day, tired the next...the tiredness/sleepiness is getting worse...I change the methimazole to one 10mg tab in the am and one in the pm 12 hrs apart. I figure my stress levels aren't the same all day, they go up and they go down, so therefore the level of hormone my body would normally produce would be more sometimes and less at others, this would help to even it out.
June 25, 2010 - It seems to work then I start to feel ill, and think of the side effects. Have a low-grade temperature, and get blood work for CBC, which is fine. I think, its hot, and read the med alerts again, then I think dehydrated...the meds use a lot of hydration in the body, I drink a full 8oz bottle of water and take a nap...45 min later feel much better.
June 11, 2010 - 20 mg methimazole is prescribed once a day, I take it. The next day I take it in the morning...I feel tired, for the next few days I feel good one day, tired the next...the tiredness/sleepiness is getting worse...I change the methimazole to one 10mg tab in the am and one in the pm 12 hrs apart. I figure my stress levels aren't the same all day, they go up and they go down, so therefore the level of hormone my body would normally produce would be more sometimes and less at others, this would help to even it out.
June 25, 2010 - It seems to work then I start to feel ill, and think of the side effects. Have a low-grade temperature, and get blood work for CBC, which is fine. I think, its hot, and read the med alerts again, then I think dehydrated...the meds use a lot of hydration in the body, I drink a full 8oz bottle of water and take a nap...45 min later feel much better.
July 6, 2010 - check up - fell listless that day, see the endo Dr. Not too impressed today with him, didn't say much...he is behind in his daily schedule, I'll forgive him this once. He was supposed to email my labs to me. Nothing yet and it has been 3 days. I decided I was going to chart all the tests myself and see what they look like, so I request a copy of ALL the labs that have been done over the past year. Including the uptake and scan. I hope that I'll have the results and more by the end of this week. (Monday, July 12, I get an email with all labs. Tuesday, I receive Uptake/Scan results in the mail).
July 8, 2010 - I feel good...not as tired during the day but the Dr reduced the methimazole to 10 mg a day at night and the atenolol once at night as well on Wednesday and it is Sunday. I had the 16mo old grandson this weekend and he was ill, so sleep was light for me anyway. I was a little irritable feeling today, but not like before.
7/14/2010 - 3pm - I feel like shit today. Yesterday too. Have a summer cold, sore throat, runny nose, and miserable as hell. Wonder why it is when you tell people, you need to reduce stress in your life, they feel the need to give you more!!! I really want this to end! I am tired of being miserable and stressed; just want people to leave me the hell alone. Feeling as if I want to just give it all up. REALLY! So tired, so miserable.
July 14, 2010 - 9pm - My grandson is sick too, daughter took him the the ped, who told her SP had coxsackie virus. 16mo has no fever, no rash, no sores, just diarrhea. He has a cold virus, poor thing! Love that lil'man!!!
July 14, 2010 - 9pm - My grandson is sick too, daughter took him the the ped, who told her SP had coxsackie virus. 16mo has no fever, no rash, no sores, just diarrhea. He has a cold virus, poor thing! Love that lil'man!!!
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